Dearly Beloveds,
There is never enough time to do what I need to do, but I needed to share
this with you now. I am a 49 year old Hispanic female, who loves the lord and
if it weren't for the footprints in the sand I would cease to exist.
I lost my second husband when I was 28 years old. I had a 10 month old
daughter and I was pregnant with our second child. My husband was murdered
execution style. He was found slumped in his car on the freeway, his foot was
on the brake, the radio was playing. He had been shot 6 times in the face and
once in the heart. I saw it on the news. I felt my baby stir within me and I
vowed not to cry so my baby would not feel what I was feeling. Needless to say
my daughter was born a sentimental baby girl who is hurt easily and cries at
will.
Years have passed and I thought god had given me a mountain to climb then
. On October 23, 2005 I lost my son to drug addiction. 13 years of struggling
with the demons of drug addiction finally took its toll on my son. They found
my son in a closet with a needle in his arm. God help me to live with this. I
would like to say to anyone who is dealing with this that I know what you are
going through and I pray that you will not get tired and that god will give you
the strength to keep going as he has done for me. I am not out of the woods
yet. Everyday it is a struggle, but I feel that if I can help anyone, by
talking, by praying, you name it then my son's death would not be in vain. My
son was not your typical drug addict. He was doing so good, he had been
completely clean for 4 months. When he used again he used the same amount he
used when he was strung out and that of course was an overdose. I thank god
everyday for another day and wonder what is in store for me today. Praise the
lord!
I have an appointment on Wed. 27 of April, it seems that I had an abnormal
mammogram. For with his stripes we are healed, that was his promise so I will
not claim that abnormal mammogram . I only pray that his will be done. I guess
what I am saying is pray with me and I will pray with you.
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