Rosemarie


Dearly Beloveds,
     There is never enough time to do what I need to do, but I needed to share this with you now.  I am a 49 year old Hispanic female, who loves the lord and if it weren't for the footprints in the sand I would cease to exist.
      I lost my second husband when I was 28 years old.  I had a 10 month old daughter and I was pregnant with our second child.  My husband was murdered execution style.  He was found slumped in his car on the freeway, his foot was on the brake, the radio was playing.  He had been shot 6 times in the face and once in the heart.  I saw it on the news.  I felt my baby stir within me and I vowed not to cry so my baby would not feel what I was feeling.  Needless to say my daughter was born a sentimental baby girl who is hurt easily and cries at will.
     Years have passed and I thought god had given me a mountain to climb then .  On October 23, 2005 I lost my son to drug addiction.  13 years of struggling with the demons of drug addiction finally took its toll on my son.  They found my son in a closet with a needle in his arm.  God help me to live with this. I would like to say to anyone who is dealing with this that I know what you are going through and I pray that you will not get tired and that god will give you the strength to keep going as he has done for me.  I am not out of the woods yet.  Everyday it is a struggle, but I feel that if I can help anyone, by talking, by praying, you name it then  my son's death would not be in vain.  My son was not your typical drug addict.  He was doing so good, he had been completely clean for 4 months.  When he used again he used the same amount he used when he was strung out and that of course was an overdose.  I thank god everyday for another day and wonder what is in store for me today.  Praise the lord!
     I have an appointment on Wed. 27 of April, it seems that I had an abnormal mammogram.  For with his stripes we are healed, that was his promise so I will not claim that abnormal mammogram .  I only pray that his will be done.  I guess what I am saying is pray with me and I will pray with you.
 

  God Bless Us all!
Your Sister in Christ
Rose Gonzales


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